I decided to stop having my adoptive parents in my life July 26, 2013. I was tired of their hypocrisy and judgment. They claimed to be followers of Jesus, but they didn’t know him. I never once saw them read the Bible and the bible verses they quoted were not really in the Bible. The last time I talked to my adoptive dad was right before Thanksgiving. He told me, “If you raise your hand to strike a child of God, He will strike you down.” I just laughed. God isn’t like that. God is loving and caring. He cries when we hurt and laugh when we smile. He isn’t waiting with a baseball bat to beat us down every chance He gets. He isn’t waiting for us to mess up so He can take pleasure in punishing us. I couldn’t serve a God that was so vengeful, He would be too much like my parents. I am so happy to know that I serve a God that is loving and smiles when He thinks of me.
I was meditating in prayer at a prayer meeting about a year ago. I was thinking of Jesus and how much He loves us. I smiled and kind of giggled at the next thought I had. I could see Him looking down and seeing the progress I have made on my healing journey. I could see Him being so proud of how I have been learning more about who He is and how I am trying to put what I have learned into action. I suddenly saw Jesus smiling down and getting so excited. I could see him bragging on me in Heaven. He was telling all the angels about me and that made me feel so good. I got even more excited when I realized that He did that for everyone. I was so relieved to know that Jesus has a vested interest in our lives. He is there for every milestone, nightmare, healing, tear, laugh, smile, and breath. It is so wonderful to know that even though I was failed by my adoptive parents, Jesus happily takes their place. 😀