My husband and I decided to get me a new Bible this past week. The one I was using now was one I got the same night I was first molested. My rapist would tell me stories and say to always have my bible with me when I was scared. That it would protect me. I lost faith because I brought my brand new Bible with me, in hopes I would be protected, but I wasn’t.
Through all the pain and suffering I had to face, I kept my love for God. I was confused and I was mad that God would make me go through this stuff. However, I had a grandfather who would sit me down and read me from the Bible. I had a grandfather that taught me the love of God.
I got a new Bible and can’t wait for my husband to write a message in me. It is purple, my favorite color. The first thing I read was Psalm 27. It is one of my favorite chapter of the Bible.
I got to the part where it said, “I would have lost heart, if I had not believed.” That just touched my heart so much. I connected with it. I am taking it as my anthem or life saying. I would have lost heart, if I had not believed.